You millionares with your financial affairs

I'm hoping to do a quick post, as I have a headache that's making my head spin.

The last few days have been pretty good. Today was wonderful. For some reason, the warm weather has put me in a semi-productive mood, and I cleaned out my car today. Yes, you read correctly: I cleaned my car. It looks pretty dashing, if I do say so myself. It took 2 trashbags to clear out all of my crap that I wanted to keep (like clothes and shoes), and a bag and a half of straight-up trash. But my car looks awesome. I went with David and Mary to see The Pajama Game and Jamestown High, and it was stellar. It totally blew LHS out of the water.

But enough of the good stuff. People have been irritating me lately. Well, not people. Just one person. He accuses me of not knowing how to be committed to stuff, and accusing me of letting my boyfriend fight my battles, and saying all of this terrible stuff to me, yet he doesn't realize that he's being a complete hypocrite. I tried being nice to him, I tried getting him to see my side of the story while I'm seeing his, I've tried defending him to other people, but I'm done with that. I'm done being his friend. But of all the things he said to me, the worst was when he said, "Kelsey, you don't know what it's like to be smart and want to go to college." I didn't know how to respond. He's known me for just a few months, and I don't feel like he can judge my intelligence and wants based on what little he knows about me. I nearly started crying because no one has ever said anything that hurtful to me before. I knew that what he said wasn't true. I know I'm a smart young woman, and I know that I do want to go back to college as soon as I get my life in better shape. He continued on saying that I don't know what it's like to have something that I'm truly passionate for and to have someone that you love with all of your heart and loves you back. The last part really threw me off since he's dating a minor, which probably won't last and may end up badly, as I told him when he asked me my opinion on him seeing this particular girl. Plus, I'm pretty sure I know how it feels to feel passionate about something. I wouldn't spend so much time working on songs and lines if I wasn't passionate for the theater. I wouldn't put as much money as I can into improving myself if I wasn't passionate. I wouldn't go to rehearsals after a 50-hour work week in the rain while sick if I wasn't passionate. But he doesn't go to his races if he has a sniffly nose. As for the "letting my boyfriend fight my fights" thing, Chris only stepped in when he saw how visibly upset I was on my vacation. Yet he doesn't even let his girlfriend start her fights before he's attacking others, whether they're involved or not. I feel like I'm being cast into the fire without so much as a defense, and it's so frustrating and angering. I just don't understand what I've done to warrant such attacks. I was always so kind and friendly to him. I got him a couple of the roles he really wanted, and this is how I'm being repaid. Maybe I just expected too much and now I'm just getting burned again. I don't know. But I feel like I have a right to be angry, especially when he attacks me like this during my vacation.

But now I'm going to try to sleep. I work tomorrow from 915 to 4, then Backstage from 6-10. We'll see how things turn out there. There's bound to be a lot of drama tomorrow.

By the way, Eucalyptus is fantastic for headaches. I bought a Eucalyptus-scented candle today at Yankee Candle, and I lit it right before I started typing, and my headache's almost gone.